i really hate a situation which is forced me to do or anwer something that i haven't think about it before. no one love to be forced. so do i. and humans are usually done something without think what will be happen next day. and i feel it now.

i thought that i was a an evil who live in this world only to do something that made others are gettin hurt. no one want to be hurt, and i dont want it too. this is the day. the day that i have to answer that questions. the day that i have to prove something.

but, how can you say YES or NO, if you aren't know whats your feelin? how can you prove it if you aren't youve done right or wrong thing?

OK, i still have maybe an hour. but i still dont kow what ive to say, what ive to do. no one can help me to solve this problem. this isnt a promblem i thought if i solve this yesterday.

yesterday, yes yesterday. yesterday i started to feel and at the same time ive to closed that book. ive to erased all things that youve gave to me.

I just dont know. please dont make me feel more confused! consequences are only made me more crazy than before :((